Dear Eve,

Dear Eve,

I am a single child

No pets until I was twelve

Parents traveled to Europe a lot

I came along

Most people say traveling is good

‘cause you meet new people

but,

out of the thousand I met

three were children

all were boys

I met them

was friend with them once

and never met them again

when I came back home

everyone was friends

then I transferred

to a really really small school

everyone knew each other

but nobody knew me

three years

alone

finally someone new came

didn’t fit it

and ended up like me

not like me

just in the same situation as me

seventh grade

lots of fights

she couldn’t understand me

even though I understood her

eighth grade

boys began to bully

me

she started to hang out

with them

she had big tits and a big butt

they would try to see

if they could touch them

throw bits of stuff down her shirt

me

what they expected from me

to be naïve

to be stupid

to not know of sex

to not know about love

 to not know about relationships

 I was considered invalid

Not important

Whatever I said was answered with

“shut up!”

“No, you shut up!”

“I hate you!”

I hate you

I hate you

I hate you

I hate you

I hate you

Every day

Even if I didn’t say anything

My “friend” heard it everyday

Sometimes she tried to help

she made it worse

boy: “your so stupid, I hate you”

friend: “Stop! Even if she is you shouldn’t say that.”

see

I hate you

Shut up

Stupid

Lock down

Shut down

Don’t show emotion

don’t cry

don’t get angry

what is angry?

I don’t know how to be angry

At least not at them

I don’t know how to be excited

when I should be

Or be angry

when I should be

I’m just lonely

I want friends that understands

My serious humor,

my thoughts,

the fact that

I make a big mess of my words

and have to start over again

or the fact that I wear

old sweatpants

anime t-shirts

and forget to put on deodorant 

But there is no one like that right?

Wrong

I found my soul mate.